Lost you.
Missed you.
Come back?
You unfollowed me?
Anyw i been wondering all along
Isit always me?
Always my fault?
Im the one who is too boring?
I envy people's r/s who can last.
They got their happily ever after.
Im the dispensable one in most people's life.
Forgotten and misplaced.
I cant accept change really.
Moving to a foreign place.
Starting a new school life.
Friends splitting up.
Why am i like this?
I cant seem to find the motivation to do anything w my life.
People will be like : why so emo?
Blues i guess.
I dont have anywhere else to vent too.
So please dont ask me stupid questions.
So i was actually led on all along?
Even though you were unsure of your own feelings?
I REALLY HATE WHAT IM FEELING RIGHT NOW.
Is like everyone only takes advantage of me.
USE me.
Oh no more use then throw me away.
DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING TOY TO EVERYONE?
DO I?
Im really sick and tired of everyone saying that they are different.
End of the day.
Same drama.
Same cock and bull story.
Same reasons for leaving.
Sigh.
Your gone.
Deleting this blog soon. Since i've started a diary.
14th feb would be our 4th month.
Valentines day.
Sigh.
Guess nothing ever lasts.
Tired of disappointment.
Married to my cigarettes.
I know most of you mean well.
Worried about my health.
I promise to cut down soon.
In the end i always stop.
I have self control.
Dont worry.
I still love you.
But life goes on.
Tired of people leaving.
I gave everything i've got.
Guess i got boring.
Like all previous r/s
Just hope i can get the results to go to the courses in poly.
Sick and tired of what life has to offer.
Everyone has it better than me.
I fell down the other day.
Hit my neck on the toilet bowl.
Had a bruise thats all.
But imagine if its my head.
I'll die slowly in my own home.
Sigh life.'
Labels: Last year's summer romance was this year's winter blues.
It looks like a solo tonight.
I dread results.
Know that i'll be disappointed.
I really wanna ask for patch.
But i just dont dare.
I dont have that much courage anymore.
When will i be truly happy?
Labels: Day 3
When you asked this : you smoke? again?
7 sticks in 2 hours.
I got happy.
Its because i actually crossed your mind for a moment.
I feel so lost right now.
I want you back.
Those times.
Kills me slowly.
I cant cope.
But i have to.
I just have to.
Heartbreak after heartbreak.
I really wonder why i still try.
I just cant let go.
With results coming soon.
I know the marks wont be great.
I'll be devastated again.
I miss you.
I love you.
Hope that someone will make you happy.
Someone will mend your heart again.
And i have to accept that the someone is just not me.
Labels: Day 2
